I'm Finding My Way Back Home....

Hello! I was thinking of what to title this post and settled with "i'm finding my way back home" because it seems that in many aspects of my life lately I have been doing just that. Finding my way back home to me is symbolic of my finding my way back to myself, strengthening my relationship with God, redefining personal relationships, getting back to the basics. You get the idea I am sure! I have not intended to be away for so long it just seems easy to say, oh I'll do it tomorrow, then tomorrow, and so on and so until I find that it has been several months and I have lost all my good intentions of blogging and keeping in touch with others.

I cannot/will not promise again that I am "back in the saddle" :) but what I will say is that it is my intention to give this a good faith effort if for nothing more than to have a place where I can write down my innermost thoughts, memories, goals & accomplishments to reflect on at some point in my future. I love to write. It has always been a joy for me to write. I deserve that.... I will accept it.... I will work hard at it.....

Tonight has been a difficult night. There is a situation that the devil knows is a fragile situation and one that is dear and close to my heart and tonight he has used that situation to cause pain and anguish and I am angry. I am angry that he thinks he has won. I am angry that he is sitting back laughing thinking that he has accomplished what he set out to do. I will not give him the victory. I am praying that God will remain victorious in my life and in the life of my family members. Just typing these words and praying as I write, I can already feel the heaviness on my heart lifting. I am starting to feel a peace. I am not going to go quietly! No, I will fight kicking and screaming. I am a mother bear and I will fight for my babes to the bitter end!

I remember a true christian woman once telling me that when you are under attack and the enemy is fighting to turn on the praise & worship and let it blast and the enemy will have no choice but to flee. Because you see, satan was once the leader of praise & worship in Heaven and because he was disgraced and cast out of Heaven he cannot stand to be in the presence of praise, worship & honor to our God above!! Bet you can't guess what I am doing now??!! That's right! I am blaring my praise & worship!!! It has gotten me through many a time!

I am learning so much about my relationship with God. I am so excited and want to share everything I am learning with everyone I know! I am so excited to see what God is doing in the lives of my children and my nephews! They are just mere babes in Christ but you would never believe it if you saw it yourself! God has given each one of them a gift. A true gift. We are having a spiritual revolution going on here people! And it is being led by two 16 year old and one 17 year old boys! How AMAZING & AWESOME is that??!!

They went to Mardi Gras to do street ministry. It was a life changing experience for them. The pictures are amazing. I am awed everytime I see them. I can see it in their faces even through a picture! I am excited for them and yet sad that I didn't get to experience it with them. I don't want to miss out on another one of these opportunites again!

About a month ago I got to be apart of an outreach that Mesynger did with a women's shelter there in Louisville, KY. This is where my heart lies! They said we all gave so much to them but the truth is, they will never know how much they touched my heart, how much they gave back to me. It was far more than I gave them. They touched my heart to the very core of my heart. We're talking about people who have suffered and are suffering horrific life circumstances that you and I may never be able to imagine but yet they came there that Saturday afternoon with an open mind and a joyful heart ready to receive and yet give the most precious gift they so willing gave, their hearts! WOW! I am forever changed. Wayside, you touched me! Through your willingness to surrender and let God have his way, you gave me the refreshing in my spirit that I truly needed. You have a place in my heart that will never be the same!

I know, I know, this has turned out to be a seriously long post! I will do my best to do better at posting if not on a daily basis at least a more regular basis! Thanks for hanging in there and checking in on me!

Until next time,
Beth