Doing My Patriotic Duty....

Today I am going to do something that I have never done before now! I am going to serve my political party and encourage my fellow American's to VOTE, VOTE, VOTE! This is such a critical year for our Country and it is so critical that each and everyone that is registered VOTE! I am excited and a little nervous. I am quite sure it will be painless but yet it is something I have never done before!


I'm sorry I have missed updating the last few days. Things have been a little hectic. I am trying to find a job (without much success!). Boy are things different after being out of the "loop" for 12 years! I find myself having such a difficult time getting my foot in the door. Could be the effects of the way our employment rates are going or it could be the fact that I am being perceived as "unhireable" since I technically have not had a job in 12 years. Either way, it stinks!


I have been enjoying hanging out with the kids. I want to take as many opportunities to spend as much time as possible with them. I am building more memories in my memory bank to pull out for future reference when I am missing them. Memories that will be guaranteed to put a smile on my face! Even just hanging out with Bri and watching some of our favorite shows or listening to them telling me stores about their days and what they learned and yes even playing Guitar Hero World Tour with Taylor! Every moment I treasure. Every moment I am depositing those memories as quickly as I can and hoping that they too are enjoying the moment and that it will be a happy memory they will look back on one day.


I find myself on the other end of the rope with my own parents. Seeing them both getting older has been a very difficult thing for me to deal with especially lately. I find myself in denial that when Dad asks me the same question several times it is just easier to tell myself that it is just a habbit he has picked up, not that his memory may be fading. With Mom I tell myself it isn't because she is getting older that it is so difficult and painful for her to get up. It is just because she is on the go all the time. Yeah, right! Tell yourself that lie again! It is right there in front of me. Smack dab in my face. Taunting me - nah, nah, nah, nah, you can't stop me. That's right, I can't stop time but I am trying to teach myself that what I can control is how I respond and react to this thief who is stealing my days right away from me. I can and I WILL enjoy EVERY single day, EVERY single memory I can make with my loved ones. I can and I WILL no longer let fear stop me dead in my tracks. T-I-M-E, I am calling you out! I will no longer be a victim! I will face and embrace each day of my life with unabashed JOY, LOVE, CONFIDENCE AND LAUGHTER! I will dance down memory lane like there is no tomorrow!


I have had so many regrets in my life. So many people I have let down in one way or another and I myself have been let down in one way or another by others. But, if I continue to wallow in the guilt and/or sadness of it all then I have learned nothing and it all has been in vain. I must figure out a way to move forward and embrace my life as it has now become and get on with becoming the best ME that I can be!


Thank you for sharing this wonderful journey with me. Good or bad. We're in it together!


Love, Me